Gimme some fist bitches~

I went to offering for prayer to my late friend at my secondary school and surprisingly enough my male friends shake my hands, usually men shake hand with other man and just shove a wave with female friends. Hell, even my male junior being nice to me rather than the females.

As I sit with my female friends, I kindda feel out of place, it been a while since I socialize with my female friends and I forgot how to utter young female language (I have two brother and they don't think I'm a girl)

I reflected back, my friends and I always be 'dude' with my male friends, bro fist, bromance, talking about NSFW (that makes them misunderstand that I'm a lesbian or bi, when I say I'm not they almost hit a tree; he was driving, so yeah) I relate to what men usually interested, even tough I don't know much of it, but its good to hear. I feel more comfortable with the male species more than my bitches!

In my life, I always find it hard to talk to a girl; because they talk too much, they have cliche, subtle talking. If I say something bad it going to be a black spot for first impression, girls usually never forget and forgive. When they hold grudge, they hold to their grave and haunts people! Hell I learn that female are species that are hard to understand!

Well, I'm a girl too but I live with two brothers who tackle me down, make me a training puppet with an excuse to learn self-defense. I remember I drank my brother favourite drink and he fold my body like a contortionist and sit on my overfold body, there's more but it's too violent to share, C'est la vie~

I like meeting new people but I rather not meet with someone who not open the different idea of feminine and masculine, I have few friends who shocked to my behavior that act more manly than their boyfriends and the dudes, its either they accept it or reject the whole idea. Thankfully the dudes are open with my manly behavior (just one of few reason I will never have any boyfriend unless they are gay and fully known that I have female body). Some of the girls still trying to accept but I'm okay with that, I learn how to adapt to different people and situation, even to awkward situation....damn, I just hate awkwardness!

Thankfully I meet people I could totally relate without any awkward, most of my closed friends accept my unorthodox behavior, little judgmental is good sometimes, just a little~